So we're doing a project in Journalism class. We had to find 5 events in between a certain time period, blah blah blah. It's more complicated than it should be, and all that doesn't really matter. What does matter is this...
One of the events I chose was the Columbine shooting. We had to give a short summary of what happened, and what role journalism would have played. Do you believe it's been 8 years since the shooting? I mean surely it did not effect me directly, but I remember that day very clearly.
I got home from school that day and the news was on. My sister was crying, and my mom was watching intently. I had no idea what was going on. I couldn't even fathom the concept of a school shooting really, but I knew that it was bad. I knew that something was happening.
A year or two ago I read the book, Rachel's Tears. This book told some of the story of Rachel Joy Scott, a victim of the shooting. For a long time I put this whole story off. It touched me, and I thought it was awesome that in the face of death, she looked in the devil's eyes, and was faithful to her God, but I have a deeper appreciation now that I am further in my own faith.
It makes me wonder and evaluate myself. Would I have said yes? Do I have what it takes to be a modern day martyr? to be a "Jesus Freak"? I sure hope so.
Paul tells us in Philippians that to live is Christ and to die is gain. To die is gain! This is one of my favorite verses, because it assures me that this world is not my home. There is something much greater in store for me. So I pray that I have the endurance to make it through and receive my prize, or if God's plan for me is to be a martyr, that I can give my life for Him.
I'll probably post about this again.
Monday, September 24, 2007
Thursday, September 6, 2007
Jesus is my homeboy?
So today in English class we were talking about heroes. Different names were thrown out there. People were discussing and questions were brought up. My class is a large one, and we all pretty much know each other, so we joke around a lot. The class was serious for the most part, until my friend Mark stated, "I think Jesus is a pretty cool guy." Most of the class laughed. Mark was in fact being serious, he just happened to say it in a lighter way. Other religious figures were said as well, such as Mother Theresa. So why is it that when the hero of them all is said, it must be a joke? When I brought it up at lunch, some people said maybe it's because Mark was serious but whoever said Mother Theresa wasn't, and made other excuses for those who laughed. It shouldn't matter if he were joking or not. I don't know, this whole situation really bugged me.
We talked about what makes a person worth while. People said attitude, school, independence, and other things of this sort. What makes me worth while? morals, spirituality, personality. Why were none of these things said? Maybe it's because there is no morality in this world anymore. I spoke to Summer yesterday. She's reading a book about the Millennials, my generation. According to this book, we are a "wanted" generation, where as the X-ers, the prior generation, were not. We work as a team, we are others minded, we go to college, we care about shaping our lives, not just the here and now, and we are more moral than the X-ers. Most of the Truman population does not meet many of these statements, at least in my opinion. I don't know if I hold my standards too high, or I don't know enough of the population, but I'm just not seeing it.
I guess the X-ers must have been really immoral, because from what I've seen the bar can't be very high, or we wouldn't be beating it. Many MANY sexually active teens, language out the wazoo, disrespect to elders, and an I don't care attitude is what I see and hear most about.
I don't know. I guess the environment and people I'm around at school is only a small percentage of the Millennials generation. Maybe they're more moral in NYC or LA. One can only hope, that there is a hope.
On the life side...
School is going very well. I am in all the classes I wanted to be except for one, which I don't technically have a class for yet, but hopefully I will be in piano lab. I'm re-making old friends. I'm having fun.
Volleyball is going really well. Our group of girls works pretty well together, and have a generally good attitude. We won our game against CAP yesterday. We lost against Neshaminy today, but played really well. I had some good stuff happen. Mr.A gave me some good news. I'm pumped for the season in general, and thinking about my volleyball future.
We talked about what makes a person worth while. People said attitude, school, independence, and other things of this sort. What makes me worth while? morals, spirituality, personality. Why were none of these things said? Maybe it's because there is no morality in this world anymore. I spoke to Summer yesterday. She's reading a book about the Millennials, my generation. According to this book, we are a "wanted" generation, where as the X-ers, the prior generation, were not. We work as a team, we are others minded, we go to college, we care about shaping our lives, not just the here and now, and we are more moral than the X-ers. Most of the Truman population does not meet many of these statements, at least in my opinion. I don't know if I hold my standards too high, or I don't know enough of the population, but I'm just not seeing it.
I guess the X-ers must have been really immoral, because from what I've seen the bar can't be very high, or we wouldn't be beating it. Many MANY sexually active teens, language out the wazoo, disrespect to elders, and an I don't care attitude is what I see and hear most about.
I don't know. I guess the environment and people I'm around at school is only a small percentage of the Millennials generation. Maybe they're more moral in NYC or LA. One can only hope, that there is a hope.
On the life side...
School is going very well. I am in all the classes I wanted to be except for one, which I don't technically have a class for yet, but hopefully I will be in piano lab. I'm re-making old friends. I'm having fun.
Volleyball is going really well. Our group of girls works pretty well together, and have a generally good attitude. We won our game against CAP yesterday. We lost against Neshaminy today, but played really well. I had some good stuff happen. Mr.A gave me some good news. I'm pumped for the season in general, and thinking about my volleyball future.
Sunday, September 2, 2007
Rich Young Ruler
I've had some thoughts today. One of them was that I should share my thoughts on here more often. I want to turn this blog more into my writing blog and notebook of sorts rather than a daily diary of what's going on in my life. I'll still talk about what's going on, but I just want to write more. Maybe I should check copyright stuff though!
In the teen class this morning we read about the rich young ruler. I've heard the story before and thought nothing of it. Today I actually listened to what I read. Part of me wishes I could just as Jesus what I'm lacking, so I can fix it, and know there is nothing between me and eternal life. Part of me wishes I could drop everything I have and follow Jesus. Can you imagine being an apostle? Seeing the miracles and hearing the parables right there in front of you? Having Jesus physically there as your best friend?
I have given my life to Jesus. I have made Him my best friend. I love Him with all my heart, and I pray that that love just grows stronger. I know in my heart that I want to live my life as God has intended me to, and glorify Him in all that I do. But how do I know that that's enough?
After we read this Mr. Dave asked the usual, well does this mean we can't have money, we can't do anything, we need to sit at home and pray and read our bibles all the time? no. Well what doe sit mean then? God is numero uno. Well what if you want to play on this amazing soccer team and all the practices, all the games are on Sunday? You find another team! This isn't a hard decision at all.
I surely am not a rich young ruler, and I am not perfect, but if I was told to give all my stuff to the poor and follow Jesus today, I can honestly say I would. I think that's one thing I've really grown to understand and hold in my heart. Nothing comes between me and my God. I love my family, I love my friends, but ultimately I am here to live my life for God, share His love, and be with Him. God is number one on my list and I pray that He always stays there. I sometimes get frustrated that it's so hard for people to get this. I mean I'm not perfect. I don't go to church at every appointed time and every activity. I don't read and pray as much as I should, but I surely would not pick soccer or anything else over church. I quit marching band because I wanted to go to more retreats and events. I don't want a cookie, but this life is only temporary! This opens my eyes to how much Satan is the God of this world.
On a more worldly note, I did a fund raising coin toss today for volleyball. I was amused by the nature of my fellow Americans, and their anxiousness to leave the grocery store when they see me with a bucket in my hand. I don't understand why people are so attached to the two dollars change they got after shopping. I wrote in article about it so I don't have as much to say. I said it all already. The only thing I couldn't talk about was how rude and annoying the Courier Times lately was at the store. Bashing the newspaper you're writing for isn't the best idea.
School starts Tuesday, and I'm not gonna lie...I can't wait!
Summer told me that I should get my acceptance letter in the next month or so. I still check the mail every single day.
I had a nice conversation with Chris about OVU. It made me happy to think about home =]
The mosquitoes in this house are beginning to drive me insane.
Tomorrow is the last official day of summer I suppose. It doesn't bother me much. My summer was over when I got home a month ago. The only hard part will be getting up at 6 or so and making my self look good for school.
I'll be 18 in a month or so. Most people say they feel no change. I don't feel any different, but I am noticing some changes.
In the teen class this morning we read about the rich young ruler. I've heard the story before and thought nothing of it. Today I actually listened to what I read. Part of me wishes I could just as Jesus what I'm lacking, so I can fix it, and know there is nothing between me and eternal life. Part of me wishes I could drop everything I have and follow Jesus. Can you imagine being an apostle? Seeing the miracles and hearing the parables right there in front of you? Having Jesus physically there as your best friend?
I have given my life to Jesus. I have made Him my best friend. I love Him with all my heart, and I pray that that love just grows stronger. I know in my heart that I want to live my life as God has intended me to, and glorify Him in all that I do. But how do I know that that's enough?
After we read this Mr. Dave asked the usual, well does this mean we can't have money, we can't do anything, we need to sit at home and pray and read our bibles all the time? no. Well what doe sit mean then? God is numero uno. Well what if you want to play on this amazing soccer team and all the practices, all the games are on Sunday? You find another team! This isn't a hard decision at all.
I surely am not a rich young ruler, and I am not perfect, but if I was told to give all my stuff to the poor and follow Jesus today, I can honestly say I would. I think that's one thing I've really grown to understand and hold in my heart. Nothing comes between me and my God. I love my family, I love my friends, but ultimately I am here to live my life for God, share His love, and be with Him. God is number one on my list and I pray that He always stays there. I sometimes get frustrated that it's so hard for people to get this. I mean I'm not perfect. I don't go to church at every appointed time and every activity. I don't read and pray as much as I should, but I surely would not pick soccer or anything else over church. I quit marching band because I wanted to go to more retreats and events. I don't want a cookie, but this life is only temporary! This opens my eyes to how much Satan is the God of this world.
On a more worldly note, I did a fund raising coin toss today for volleyball. I was amused by the nature of my fellow Americans, and their anxiousness to leave the grocery store when they see me with a bucket in my hand. I don't understand why people are so attached to the two dollars change they got after shopping. I wrote in article about it so I don't have as much to say. I said it all already. The only thing I couldn't talk about was how rude and annoying the Courier Times lately was at the store. Bashing the newspaper you're writing for isn't the best idea.
School starts Tuesday, and I'm not gonna lie...I can't wait!
Summer told me that I should get my acceptance letter in the next month or so. I still check the mail every single day.
I had a nice conversation with Chris about OVU. It made me happy to think about home =]
The mosquitoes in this house are beginning to drive me insane.
Tomorrow is the last official day of summer I suppose. It doesn't bother me much. My summer was over when I got home a month ago. The only hard part will be getting up at 6 or so and making my self look good for school.
I'll be 18 in a month or so. Most people say they feel no change. I don't feel any different, but I am noticing some changes.
some songs and thoughts
These are some songs that have been special to me lately. I thought I'd share them with you, along with some thoughts about them. It's pretty long. What can I say?
Pencil marks on a wall, I wasn't always this tall.
You scattered some monsters from beneath my bed.
You watched my team win, you watched my team lose.
You watched when my bicycle went down again.
And when I was weak, unable to speak, still I could call you by name.
And I said elbow healer, super hero, come if you can.
And you said I am.
Only sixteen, life is so mean.
What kind of curfew is at ten p.m.?
You saw my mistakes, you watched my heart break.
Heard when I swore I'd never love again.
When I was weak, unable to speak, still I could call you by name.
And I said heartache healer, secret keeper, be my best friend.
And you said I am.
You saw me wear white, by a pale candle light.
I said forever to what lies ahead.
Two kids and a dream, with kids that can scream.
Too much it might seem when it's two a.m.
And when I am weak, unable to speak, still I will call you by name.
Oh Shepard, Savior, pasture maker, hold on to my hand.
You say I am.
The winds of change and circumstance blow in and all around us.
So we find a foothold that's familiar,
and bless the moments that we feel you nearer.
When life had begun I was woven and spun.
you'd let the angels dance around the throne,
and who can say when, but they'll dance again
when I am free and finally headed home.
I will be weak, unable to speak, still I will call you by name.
Creator, maker, life sustainer, comforter, healer,
my redeemer, Lord and King, beginning and the end.
I am. Yes I am.
-Nichole Nordeman.I am
As I sat in the gazebo, in the heart of Camp Manatawny, with the sun shining on me, it warmed my soul. He was there every day. He IS there every day. But what softened my heart was this song, when Donna played it during class last summer. That class changed my life and opened my eyes to what an amazing God is at my fingertips, who wants my love. My eyes were opened and I saw all the possibilities that were there for me, but I didn't understand. This summer was like the next step. God took what I had learned last summer, and put it into play. My heart was open and softened last summer, I knew something was missing, I knew I needed more, and I needed to do more, and now it has all fallen into place. I feel complete, and ready to live my life for Him. It's crazy how perfect His timing is. It's just like a good TV show. In the beginning there are some boring episodes, and it seems like the plot is moving so slow, or the episodes seem like there is no meat, no climax, and just as you're about to stop watching, it all comes together, and you see that the boring ones were just setting you up for something much, much bigger. The only difference is for my life that bigger better thing isn't a reunited family, it isn't a renewed love for an old boyfriend, it isn't an old friend brought back into the picture...It's eternal life with my God =]
Can I sing you a song, about what happens when you're gone?
My whole world seems to fall, and I don't feel like myself at all.
I must confess that it's true. That I'm nothing without you.
We're two souls turned into one, cause without you I feel undone.
Can I sing you a song, about what happens when you're gone?
Everything around comes crashing down, and I find myself on the ground.
I must confess that it's true. That I'm nothing without you.
We are two souls turned into one, cause without you I feel undone.
I must confess that it's true. That I'm nothing without you.
We are two souls turned into one, cause without you I feel undone.
-Shawn McDonald.Confess
I feel that this song explains my relationship with my God. I have grown so close to Him, closer then I've ever been. I pray that that closeness continues to grow, and that I never let it go. I would be nothing without Him. He gave me life, so I give mine up to Him. I pray that I fulfill His will for me, that I be the light he wants me to be.
The more I seek you, the more I find you.
The more I find you, the more I love you.
I wanna sit at your feet, drink from the cup in your hand,
lay back against you and breath, feel your heart beat.
This love is so deep, it's more than I can stand.
I melt in your peace, it's overwhelming.
The more I seek you, the more I find you.
The more I find you, the more I love you.
I wanna sit at your feet, drink from the cup in your hand,
lay back against you and breath, feel your heart beat.
This love is so deep, it's more than I can stand.
I melt in your peace, it's overwhelming.
I wanna sit at your feet, drink from the cup in your hand,
lay back against you and breath, feel your heart beat.
This love is so deep, it's more than I can stand.
I melt in your peace.
Oh I wanna sit at your feet, drink from the cup in your hand,
lay back and against you and breath, feel your heart beat.
This love is so deep, it's more than I can stand.
I melt in your peace.
-Kari Jobe.The More I Seek You
This song just touches a soft spot on my heart. I pray that I can love this deep. I pray that I seek God with all my heart and love him so much that this world doesn't matter anymore. Paul comes to mind. In Phillipians Paul says to live is Christ and to die is gain. To die is gain? I know that heaven is unimaginably better then where we are now, but I could not truly say that I would rather be there with all my heart, because I have so many earthly desires, so many selfish dreams. I pray that I too can say the things Paul says, and have this intimate love.
The saddest thing is you could be anything, that you could want.
We could have been everything, but now we're not.
Now it's not anything at all.
The hardest part was getting this close to you.
And giving up this dream I built with you, a fairytale that isn't coming true.
You've got some growing up to do.
I wish we could have worked it out.
I wish I didn't have these doubts.
I wish I didn't have to wonder just what you are doing now.
I wish I didn't know inside that it won't work out for you and I.
I wish that I could stop this wishing and just say my last goodbye.
After the things you put me through, tell me why I'm still in love with you.
And why am I, why am I still waiting for your call?
You broke my heart, I'm taking it back from you.
I'm taking back the life I gave to you.
Live goes on before and after you.
I've got some growing up to do.
I wish we could have worked it out.
I wish I didn't have these doubts.
I wish I didn't have to wonder just what you're doing now.
I wish I didn't know inside that it won't work out for you and I.
I wish that I could stop this wishing and just say my last goodbye.
It's time I said my last goodbye.
It's time I said my last goodbye.
Goodbye...
-Superchick.Wishes
It's crazy how much this song relates to me. It totally speaks my relationship with Joe. I hope that my last goodbye has been said, and that I'm moving on.
So what I'm not your average girl.
I don't meet the standards of this world.
Chasing after boys is not my thing.
See I'm waiting for a wedding ring.
No more dating I'm just waiting.
Like sleeping beauty, my prince will come for me.
No more dating I'm just waiting.
Cause God is writing my love story.
Boys are bad, that's certainly not true,
Cause God is preparing one for you.
If you get tired waiting til he comes,
God's arms are the perfect place to run.
No more dating I'm just waiting.
Like sleeping beauty, my prince will come for me.
No more dating I'm just waiting.
Cause God is writing my love story.
Sleep. That's the only thing for me,
cause when I sleep, God's preparing one for me.
No more dating I'm just waiting.
Like sleeping beauty, my prince will come for me.
No more dating I'm just waiting.
Cause God is writing my love story.
-Barlowgirl.Average Girl
Instead I want to be singing this song. I want to have patience and know that God will send my guy right along, right when I'm ready.
And this week the trend was to not wake up till 3pm.
I picked the few conscious hours that I chose to spend and slept away the rest of them.
And this week the trend was to crash and burn and then return again,
to practice the life that I pretend provides enough to get me through the weekend.
so I say, get me a solution
and watch me run with it
and then you gave, you gave me a solution
what have I done with it?
cause I was absolutely sure I had it all figured out
way back then
and now it's this minute, this hour, this day
And this week the trend was to backstab every single one of my friends
and leave a voicemail message trying to make amends
all the while hoping things work out in the end
and this week the trend was to borrow all the strength that you could lend
to keep my head above the water and not descend
back to where I said I'd never go again
So I say, give me a solution
and watch me run with it
and then you gave
you gave me a solution
what have I done with it?
cause I was absolutely sure I had it all figured out
way back then
but after this day it's this week all over again
And I just want to get mugged at knifepoint
to get cut enough to wake me up.
cause I know that I don't want to die
sitting around watching my life go by.
and what we take from this is what we'll get
and we haven't quite figured it out just yet
because all of us are all too stuck
strapped to a chair watching our lives blow up
stuck watching our lives blow up
-Relient K.This Week the Trend
Sometimes this song describes me a little better than I want it too. I waste so much time. I pray that I wake up and use my time wisely, because I want my life to glorify God and I'm surely not glorifying Him by sitting at the computer doing nothing, or on the couch watching TV. I pray that I use the resources I have been given to expand my knowledge and grow in my relationship.
Father God, just for today, help me walk your narrow way.
Help stand when I might fall, give me the strength to hear your call.
May my steps be worship, may my thoughts be praise,
may my words bring honor to your name.
May my steps be worship, may my thoughts be praise,
may my words bring honor to your name.
Father God, help me to see, your smiling face, right next to me.
Open up my heart's blind eyes, and lead me to your glory divine.
May my steps be worship, may my thoughts be praise,
may my words bring honor to your name.
May my steps be worship, may my thoughts be praise,
may my words bring honor to your name.
-Express.Just For Today
I try to sing this song to myself every morning. I think it's the perfect way to start the day, and get your focus on God. I like to take things day by day, because I often think to far, and get ahead of myself. I don't know what God has in store for me, so I have no right to make plans for myself, until I know what His plan is. If it's not what He wants, it's most likely not going to work out anyway. I pray that I start every day off on the right foot, and if for whatever reason I don't start on the right foot, I end on it.
Pencil marks on a wall, I wasn't always this tall.
You scattered some monsters from beneath my bed.
You watched my team win, you watched my team lose.
You watched when my bicycle went down again.
And when I was weak, unable to speak, still I could call you by name.
And I said elbow healer, super hero, come if you can.
And you said I am.
Only sixteen, life is so mean.
What kind of curfew is at ten p.m.?
You saw my mistakes, you watched my heart break.
Heard when I swore I'd never love again.
When I was weak, unable to speak, still I could call you by name.
And I said heartache healer, secret keeper, be my best friend.
And you said I am.
You saw me wear white, by a pale candle light.
I said forever to what lies ahead.
Two kids and a dream, with kids that can scream.
Too much it might seem when it's two a.m.
And when I am weak, unable to speak, still I will call you by name.
Oh Shepard, Savior, pasture maker, hold on to my hand.
You say I am.
The winds of change and circumstance blow in and all around us.
So we find a foothold that's familiar,
and bless the moments that we feel you nearer.
When life had begun I was woven and spun.
you'd let the angels dance around the throne,
and who can say when, but they'll dance again
when I am free and finally headed home.
I will be weak, unable to speak, still I will call you by name.
Creator, maker, life sustainer, comforter, healer,
my redeemer, Lord and King, beginning and the end.
I am. Yes I am.
-Nichole Nordeman.I am
As I sat in the gazebo, in the heart of Camp Manatawny, with the sun shining on me, it warmed my soul. He was there every day. He IS there every day. But what softened my heart was this song, when Donna played it during class last summer. That class changed my life and opened my eyes to what an amazing God is at my fingertips, who wants my love. My eyes were opened and I saw all the possibilities that were there for me, but I didn't understand. This summer was like the next step. God took what I had learned last summer, and put it into play. My heart was open and softened last summer, I knew something was missing, I knew I needed more, and I needed to do more, and now it has all fallen into place. I feel complete, and ready to live my life for Him. It's crazy how perfect His timing is. It's just like a good TV show. In the beginning there are some boring episodes, and it seems like the plot is moving so slow, or the episodes seem like there is no meat, no climax, and just as you're about to stop watching, it all comes together, and you see that the boring ones were just setting you up for something much, much bigger. The only difference is for my life that bigger better thing isn't a reunited family, it isn't a renewed love for an old boyfriend, it isn't an old friend brought back into the picture...It's eternal life with my God =]
Can I sing you a song, about what happens when you're gone?
My whole world seems to fall, and I don't feel like myself at all.
I must confess that it's true. That I'm nothing without you.
We're two souls turned into one, cause without you I feel undone.
Can I sing you a song, about what happens when you're gone?
Everything around comes crashing down, and I find myself on the ground.
I must confess that it's true. That I'm nothing without you.
We are two souls turned into one, cause without you I feel undone.
I must confess that it's true. That I'm nothing without you.
We are two souls turned into one, cause without you I feel undone.
-Shawn McDonald.Confess
I feel that this song explains my relationship with my God. I have grown so close to Him, closer then I've ever been. I pray that that closeness continues to grow, and that I never let it go. I would be nothing without Him. He gave me life, so I give mine up to Him. I pray that I fulfill His will for me, that I be the light he wants me to be.
The more I seek you, the more I find you.
The more I find you, the more I love you.
I wanna sit at your feet, drink from the cup in your hand,
lay back against you and breath, feel your heart beat.
This love is so deep, it's more than I can stand.
I melt in your peace, it's overwhelming.
The more I seek you, the more I find you.
The more I find you, the more I love you.
I wanna sit at your feet, drink from the cup in your hand,
lay back against you and breath, feel your heart beat.
This love is so deep, it's more than I can stand.
I melt in your peace, it's overwhelming.
I wanna sit at your feet, drink from the cup in your hand,
lay back against you and breath, feel your heart beat.
This love is so deep, it's more than I can stand.
I melt in your peace.
Oh I wanna sit at your feet, drink from the cup in your hand,
lay back and against you and breath, feel your heart beat.
This love is so deep, it's more than I can stand.
I melt in your peace.
-Kari Jobe.The More I Seek You
This song just touches a soft spot on my heart. I pray that I can love this deep. I pray that I seek God with all my heart and love him so much that this world doesn't matter anymore. Paul comes to mind. In Phillipians Paul says to live is Christ and to die is gain. To die is gain? I know that heaven is unimaginably better then where we are now, but I could not truly say that I would rather be there with all my heart, because I have so many earthly desires, so many selfish dreams. I pray that I too can say the things Paul says, and have this intimate love.
The saddest thing is you could be anything, that you could want.
We could have been everything, but now we're not.
Now it's not anything at all.
The hardest part was getting this close to you.
And giving up this dream I built with you, a fairytale that isn't coming true.
You've got some growing up to do.
I wish we could have worked it out.
I wish I didn't have these doubts.
I wish I didn't have to wonder just what you are doing now.
I wish I didn't know inside that it won't work out for you and I.
I wish that I could stop this wishing and just say my last goodbye.
After the things you put me through, tell me why I'm still in love with you.
And why am I, why am I still waiting for your call?
You broke my heart, I'm taking it back from you.
I'm taking back the life I gave to you.
Live goes on before and after you.
I've got some growing up to do.
I wish we could have worked it out.
I wish I didn't have these doubts.
I wish I didn't have to wonder just what you're doing now.
I wish I didn't know inside that it won't work out for you and I.
I wish that I could stop this wishing and just say my last goodbye.
It's time I said my last goodbye.
It's time I said my last goodbye.
Goodbye...
-Superchick.Wishes
It's crazy how much this song relates to me. It totally speaks my relationship with Joe. I hope that my last goodbye has been said, and that I'm moving on.
So what I'm not your average girl.
I don't meet the standards of this world.
Chasing after boys is not my thing.
See I'm waiting for a wedding ring.
No more dating I'm just waiting.
Like sleeping beauty, my prince will come for me.
No more dating I'm just waiting.
Cause God is writing my love story.
Boys are bad, that's certainly not true,
Cause God is preparing one for you.
If you get tired waiting til he comes,
God's arms are the perfect place to run.
No more dating I'm just waiting.
Like sleeping beauty, my prince will come for me.
No more dating I'm just waiting.
Cause God is writing my love story.
Sleep. That's the only thing for me,
cause when I sleep, God's preparing one for me.
No more dating I'm just waiting.
Like sleeping beauty, my prince will come for me.
No more dating I'm just waiting.
Cause God is writing my love story.
-Barlowgirl.Average Girl
Instead I want to be singing this song. I want to have patience and know that God will send my guy right along, right when I'm ready.
And this week the trend was to not wake up till 3pm.
I picked the few conscious hours that I chose to spend and slept away the rest of them.
And this week the trend was to crash and burn and then return again,
to practice the life that I pretend provides enough to get me through the weekend.
so I say, get me a solution
and watch me run with it
and then you gave, you gave me a solution
what have I done with it?
cause I was absolutely sure I had it all figured out
way back then
and now it's this minute, this hour, this day
And this week the trend was to backstab every single one of my friends
and leave a voicemail message trying to make amends
all the while hoping things work out in the end
and this week the trend was to borrow all the strength that you could lend
to keep my head above the water and not descend
back to where I said I'd never go again
So I say, give me a solution
and watch me run with it
and then you gave
you gave me a solution
what have I done with it?
cause I was absolutely sure I had it all figured out
way back then
but after this day it's this week all over again
And I just want to get mugged at knifepoint
to get cut enough to wake me up.
cause I know that I don't want to die
sitting around watching my life go by.
and what we take from this is what we'll get
and we haven't quite figured it out just yet
because all of us are all too stuck
strapped to a chair watching our lives blow up
stuck watching our lives blow up
-Relient K.This Week the Trend
Sometimes this song describes me a little better than I want it too. I waste so much time. I pray that I wake up and use my time wisely, because I want my life to glorify God and I'm surely not glorifying Him by sitting at the computer doing nothing, or on the couch watching TV. I pray that I use the resources I have been given to expand my knowledge and grow in my relationship.
Father God, just for today, help me walk your narrow way.
Help stand when I might fall, give me the strength to hear your call.
May my steps be worship, may my thoughts be praise,
may my words bring honor to your name.
May my steps be worship, may my thoughts be praise,
may my words bring honor to your name.
Father God, help me to see, your smiling face, right next to me.
Open up my heart's blind eyes, and lead me to your glory divine.
May my steps be worship, may my thoughts be praise,
may my words bring honor to your name.
May my steps be worship, may my thoughts be praise,
may my words bring honor to your name.
-Express.Just For Today
I try to sing this song to myself every morning. I think it's the perfect way to start the day, and get your focus on God. I like to take things day by day, because I often think to far, and get ahead of myself. I don't know what God has in store for me, so I have no right to make plans for myself, until I know what His plan is. If it's not what He wants, it's most likely not going to work out anyway. I pray that I start every day off on the right foot, and if for whatever reason I don't start on the right foot, I end on it.
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